[	Current Mood	|	determined	]
[	Current Music	|	Morrissey-"I Dreamt Last Night Someone Loved Me"	]

so, here I am again folks.

Haven't updated you in oh so long.

But lemme tell ya, alot has happened.

This month has been spent in utter solitary, and god has it sucked. I've had absolutely no social life this summer. I miss having a social life, I miss having my friends always by my side.

"is this gonna be a pour your heart out entry" you ask? why yes, yes it is. Mainly because very few read my entries anyway..

okay so here goes..

garr, I'm lonely and it sucks. I want a man, just for the sake of having a man, and I know that that cant be good. I mean I have my heart set on one in particular, but since THAT doesnt seem to be happening. But now, Elise and I have decided that we gotta start fresh, from scratch, get over these guys and move on. The thing is, that is soo effin hard, good guys are sooo hard to find

no..they really are

I'm tired of high school guys (I mean there are a few exceptions to this rule), but the whole high school dating thing is just tedious and annoying.

god i just want a guy that:

makes me go weak at the knees

calls me beautiful (not sexy, hot or cute)

has a car (sigh, its really hard to have a relationship without one)

has that one look (ohh come one you know what I'm talking about) that makes you feel like he only has eyes for you..(even if he doesnt..lingering eyes dont matter to me)

bares a likeness to Daniel Johns (ahhh dreamy..lol..eww i'm such a girl)

likes music as much as I do..sings along and is as much of a dork about it as I am

makes me laugh..

can sing a Morrissey song without feeling stupid..lol

sigh, i could go on for ever, with the MOST cheesy girly things, but I'm not about that.

oh well, if things go badly on the dude front...i can just kidnap elise and move to canada...

and you know what, fuck it..i dont care if its a guy..

i just want a somebody, dont matter who.

[	Current Mood	|	stressed	]
[	Current Music	|	The White Stripes- "Jolene"	]

Hello world,

Sigh, What a day its going to be. I have a 12 page paper due tomorrow and so far my paper is only a half a page long.  I’m freaked out, but Ive managed before so no worries

I watched Shrek 2 and I decided that I would really like to have fairy god mother. I really want to live in Far Far Away, except that it reminds me far to much of corporate america, and capitalism can lick my non-existant balls. With numerous chains of Fat Friar’s Fast food (it’s employees are probably underpaid), and the various Princess Mansion’s cluttering the streets of Far Far Away, it’s a very easy comparison.  But still the whole idea of having a fairy god mother seems pretty kick ass.  I mean Cinderella didn’t have it that bad off and SHE got fairy god mother, how many slippers do I have to lose before I land me one.

And trust me…I can lose shoes.

Did I mention, I’m still missing my left shoe?  Well I’m still missing my left shoe. Even though my wanna-be black chucks are now favorite shoes ever, I still miss Waly (I named him J)

It’s seems like another random thought day again.

My Crazy Thinks

Teresa and I decided that they should start a Nap Class in school. I would be in Nap Class AP, because I can sleep anywhere (my REM cycle has been ALL around town, what a whore), and Teresa would be in regular which wouldn’t help her GPA at ALL.

If you see a Doors (or just a plain Jimmy Morrison) lighter anywhere in your travels, buy it for me! I promise I’ll reimburse you. I just want one sooo bad!!

Wouldn’t it be amazing to be a dog. Just for a day. They have the best lives ever. They don’t work, they sleep. Or at least mine does, and bark. She just sleeps her little butt off all day, and when she wants to play, she plays. She does a few measly tricks and gets rewarded. How tight is that?

Can you believe it? Ive been single and havent gone on one single date since….november! That is crazy cool, but sorta sad in a way. I miss the male population, however hopelessly retarded they may be as a whole.  I want a boy, not to fall madly in love with, but to chill with, be with, mess around with, laugh with, cry with, talk with, be stupid with. Wouldn’t that be awesome?

I think that be the end of my crazy thinks

I think life is far too drunk with reality, and dreamers suffer for it.

i'm off, mac and cheese time babes

[	Current Mood	|	energetic	]
[	Current Music	|	Dexy's Midnight Runners- "Come On Eileen"	]

Chola Yall,
I'm starving and as surprising as this is gonna sound there is NO good food to eat. Everything my brother is making has beef in it...so i cant eat THAT..arrrrg. I'm tired. This week sucked so much ass.

My Current Thoughts:

I'm sad, my left shoe is still missing. I want my shoe.

Beef taquitos keep taunting me..god damn it.

I just realized the other day that my whole life I've been mixing up aardvarks with mannatees. That's pretty wild.

I'm so tired of boys, they are so pretty...but so stupid.  Why would god create such beautiful beings so god damned retarded. It makes me sad.

I think I'm done with my crazy thinks

Okay, So I just had dinner. and all throughout the shabat prayer all I could do was stare down at my amazing peanut butter and jelly sandwich and drool.  My brother took SOO long. I was dying. Then once I got my PB and J I started looking at the candles and I kept thinking "wow. I could just put a cig in there and it would just light. God my lighter sucks"...I'm really surprised God hasnt had me smote yet.

God damn it, dont you hate it when you really have a craving for something and EVERYTHING reminds you of it. LIke someone said something like

"hey can you get me the joint for this"...

"I'm going to be blunt with you"

"You know what they used to do to woman like you back then..they stoned them"

"Hey can you roll this for me"

It's driving me crazy, because I'm cooped up inside, when I know that a certain Peach Pie has a whole nugget of loveliness left (or at least I think she does, of course it's been a while).

God damn it, 4 left and I'm broke.

I love you people,

Leave much lovin.

[	Current Mood	|	bouncy	]
[	Current Music	|	Neverland National Anthem	]

WOW..I love GUS THE BUS.

AND WE LOVE THE CENTURY PLANT...dont die.